Several TMR readers have reached out to me to ask how I’m doing, and I wish I had a positive report. I’ve been experiencing symptoms similar to chronic fatigue syndrome for the past three months, and, I’ve seen neither improvement not any support from my family physician, who simply said, “You’re always fatigued, George.”
The problem is that my doctor, while hesitant to treat me, is also correct. I come from a family where auto-immune and immune-compromised folks abound, and, after three months and two Pfizer vaccines, I can rule out any coronavirus issues, but the utter exhaustion that’s keeping me in bed (and unhappy to be in bed!) most days has lingered.
As such, if I were to be honest about how I’m doing right now, I’ll tell you the truth–I’m pretty effing miserable. I want to get back to work doing what I love to do in following hockey stories and sharing them with readers on the blog and on Twitter, and this “being stuck in bed while feeling utterly exhausted” business is plain awful.
Because my primary care physician is dismissing my concerns, I need to find a new primary care physician so that I can begin to find some answers as to why I’m so damn tired, and I need those answers to determine whether the fatigue is something that can be treated.
At this point, I just want some damn answers as to whether I’m going to be able to come back, and that’s going to take time, but I hope that the journey is worth it, because I was finally doing my dream job a couple of months ago after three years of stops-and-starts due to my mom’s health, and now my health is preventing me from blogging and taking care of my aunt.
That’s all I want to do–blog about hockey and take care of my aunt–and I’m having a hard time doing either right now. I need to figure out why the chronic fatigue that’s stopping me from doing my job is stopping me from doing my job, and whether it can be treated, because I miss you all very much, I miss covering the Wings on a daily basis, and I promise that I am going to fight very hard to get back to blogging.
If I can’t come back, I’ll say as much, but I owe both you and me some answers as to why I’m sick and tired of being sick and tired, and I’m holding out hope that there will be some way by which I’ll be able to get back to doing what I love the most in blogging about hockey.
I hope all of you are doing as well as can be expected, and I hope that if you are able to get a coronavirus vaccine, you’re getting it, because that’s another thing that we’re all sick and tired of having to deal with.
I’ll talk to you guys and gals and in-betweeners soon.
With love and hope for a better day for our Red Wings,