Hi, everybody. I wanted to post a short update to let you know how my depressive episode is going.
At present, there’s some good news and some bad news.
The good news is that, thanks to a combination of psychiatry, therapy and an increase in one of my antidepressants, I’m starting to come out of the fog, and while I don’t feel quite like myself yet, I’m getting there. The world is a lot brighter, and my desire to come back to work is that much stronger.
The bad news is that physical fatigue is still chasing me down and knocking me over. I’ve been able to get on Twitter and post during most games, but on the “off days,” my body’s forcing me to spend the vast majority of my time in bed, exhausted. I’m sure that being diagnosed as severely anemic is playing into the situation, but I also feel like my depressive fatigue hasn’t let go of me yet.
Most days, I feel like I’m getting closer to functional again (I don’t need to be at 100% to work!), but I’m still not quite out of the funk mentally, and physically, my depression is still kicking my butt.
I’m working said butt off to try and function when I am able, and the discipline of caring for my aunt helps significantly there, but I’m really struggling energy-wise.
As previously stated, despite having missed three months’ worth of the Red Wings’ season, I have every intent of coming back to work and covering both whatever of the season or offseason I can, and we’re going to have quite a few Wings and prospects playing at the World Championship in Finland, so there’s going to be a significant amount of Red Wings news for long into the late spring.
Long story short, I’ve made significant progress mentally, but the physical process of recovering from my depression is still an ongoing issue. That being said, I’m still coming back when I’m able. TMR is not dead yet; it’s hibernating, due to wake back up sooner than later.
I miss all of you (yes, all of you) and I hope that I’ll be able to talk hockey with you again soon.