Things have not been getting better

Hi, everybody. I just wanted to post a short update here as it’s been quite a while since I’ve written anything.

My mental health seems to have plateaued of late. My anxiety is still incredibly uncomfortable, and my depression remains at a high level. I didn’t even start watching playoff hockey until late Monday night, despite my 2nd favorite NHL team, the Winnipeg Jets, battling the St. Louis Blues in the 1st round out West.

It’s just been a very difficult time for me, and the cloud of anxiety-and-depression funk has not lifted.

As soon as I am able, I want to get back to work. Even Aunt Annie agrees that I’m better health-wise and happier when I’ve got the blog to work for…

And while I know that Steve Yzerman and Todd McLellan haven’t spoken with the media yet–I’m guessing that they’ll speak after the team’s end-of-season meetings with players wrap up–the Wings’ YouTube channel has something like a dozen interviews with everyone from Dylan Larkin (whose comments regarding the trade deadline were substantially blown out of proportion on Monday for click-bait’s sake) to Patrick Kane and quite a few players in between, and there’s a lot to talk about there.

Hell, today, I know that there’s a report from Hockeysverige.se’s Lukas Stenstrom reporting that Liam Dower Nilsson’s heading back to IF Bjorkloven despite some desire from the Red Wings to sign the Allsvenskan-playing center, Wings free agent signing Eduards Tralmaks is starting to train with the Latvians‘ World Championship again after suffering an arm injury a couple of weeks ago, we know that Moritz Seider will play for the Germans at the Worlds, big prospect defenseman Brady Cleveland has transferred colleges for the third time, joining Max Plante at the University of Minnesota-Duluth, and Owen Mehlenbacher’s headed to Jack Phelan’s UMass.

There’s already early draft talk as the Wings finished likely to pick 12th overall this June, and with Brock Boeser suggesting that he’s all but certain to leave the Vancouver Canucks, there’s some speculation that the Wings might be interested in improving their top-six scoring…

Though the team’s free agency needs remain the same as they were last summer, basically speaking–to add scoring and physicality up front, to integrate a scoring defenseman to replace Shayne Gostisbehere’s offense, and to sort out the team’s goaltending by mixing in both free agent signings and the team’s own youngsters playing in Grand Rapids, where the Griffins got a first-round “bye” and will play in a 2nd round, 5-game series against the Texas Stars starting next week.

In other words, there’s a lot of stuff going on right now, and I want to follow it along with you, but I’m still in a lot of physical as well as mental discomfort. As soon as the “fever breaks,” I promise that I will come back and I promise that I am paying attention, so I know that there are things going on and I am at least glancing at and saving the articles to catch up when I’m ready to go again.

So I know that the blog is quiet, and I don’t like it one bit, but my stupid mental health is still pushing back hard, and I’ve got to feel better than I do to be able to put these “bed days” behind me and get back up and get to work. I’m really sorry for the delay, but shit happens sometimes, and when you’re chronically mentally ill, extended depressive episodes happen.

I’m doing my best to work with my therapist, psychiatrist, my meds and my support system to sort myself out and get back ASAP, but health has to come first here, and health is a mixed bag right now.

Assigning blame when we don’t have all the answers (yet)

I’ve continued to battle significant depression and anxiety while attempting to at least show up on Twitter over the past half-dozen games. I suppose that, given the Red Wings’ loss to Montreal on Tuesday, we’re looking at the last 5 games of the team’s 2024-2025 season here.

Another playoff-less spring means another postmortem examination, and, ultimately, another autopsy conducted upon the Red Wings’ personnel, coaching staff and management.

I’ve found that, on social media, the mainstream media, the blogosphere, sports talk radio and the podcast universe, there’s a significant desire to want to find a single person to blame for the mess–be it Steve Yzerman, Dylan Larkin, coach Derek Lalonde, etc. etc.

I believe that it’s just unlikely that one person is at fault here.

There’s more than enough blame to go around between the Red Wings’ players, coaches and management.

As the regular season concludes and we listen to the post-season media availabilities, we may receive some further clues as to what the locker-room dynamic might have been, we may find out how well coach Todd McLellan felt he and his coaching staff felt that they did in attempting to salvage the Red Wings’ season from about its halfway point, and we should glean some clues as to what Steve Yzerman and the management team are considering going forward.

And we should address the elephant in the room here:

Red Wings GM Steve Yzerman is not going to lose his job. He is not on the “hot seat” for the team’s under-performance, though there is clearly pressure upon him to deliver a playoff-worthy product next season after being passed by the Senators and Canadiens in the rebuilding process.

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Hard times and hockey blues

I’ve been having a very difficult time of late. My chronic anxiety attacks have yielded a pretty deep depression, and while I’ve been working with my psychiatrist, psychologist, and my own damn self to get through things…

I feel like I’m just starting to see some distant sunshine about to peek over the horizon, but the last two weeks’ worth of not blogging, and the last month-plus, have been particularly difficult.

Being a caregiver on top of it all doesn’t help the healing process, either, but that’s the life I’ve chosen for myself.

While all of this personal shit has been going on, of course the Red Wings have dropped 9 of their past 11 games, and while I’ve tried to at least show up on Twitter/X when I’m able to watch a game, I’ve been more a grief counselor than Red Wings partisan once games end.

The Red Wings are struggling, too, and it feels like they’re in a deep depression, too. It’s just…It’s hard to watch.

There’s a lot of blame going around. Blaming the coach. Blaming the GM. Blaming the captain. A lot of scapegoating, which isn’t necessarily productive. But there’s clearly a lot of blame to go around right now, and, to me, the Wings look out of gas, mentally, physically and emotionally.

I know that the “McLellan bump” was wonderful, but the Four Nations Face-Off break seemed to take the wind out of Detroit’s sails, and when they tried to build a winning streak in late February, the pair of losses to Columbus, Stadium Series included broke the Wings’ backs and hearts.

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Stupid anxiety and stupid depression are flaring up

The problem with enduring chronic mental illnesses is that if you have more than one, you can get into a vicious cycle.

I have a severe anxiety disorder, moderate depression and bipolar II (bipolar disorder without mania). When I’m having a difficult time with anxiety, for example, I can get depressed really easily, or my bipolar II can kick in, and I can get stuck in a rut between the gloomy downs and the super-intense middles.

Long story long, I’m having a very hard time with my mental illnesses–plural–right now.

My anxiety is still spiking, and over the past couple of days, I’ve been dealing with a significant amount of depression.

I will speak with my psychiatrist on Thursday (i.e. tomorrow), and I speak with my psychologist on Friday, so I have two appointments in two days in order to try and tamp this shit down.

In the interim, if I can sit up and type, I will try to man the blog, but right now I am struggling, big time, and I hope that you’ll understand that it’s impacting my ability to do my job.

Video: Craig Smith, Petr Mrazek and coach Todd McLellan speak with the media after Sunday’s practice

The Red Wings practiced at Little Caesars Arena’s BELFOR Training Center on Sunday, preparing for a pivotal game against the Ottawa Senators on Monday night (7 PM EDT start on FanDuel SportsNet Detroit/Fox 2/Prime Canada/TVA Sports/97.1 FM).

Petr Mrazek, Craig Smith and Simon Edvinsson were in attendance for Sunday’s skate…

But Dylan Larkin took a maintenance day after being shaken up in the Wings’ 5-2 loss to Washington on Friday.

Here’s the video of Smith, Mrazek and coach McLellan speaking with the media:

Update: The Free Press’s Helene St. James posted a shorter clip of the trio speaking with the media as well:

Post-practice Tweets: a ‘maintenance day’ for the captain

The Detroit Red Wings practiced at Little Caesars Arena’s BELFOR Training Center on Sunday afternoon, ahead of tomorrow night’s road game against the Ottawa Senators (7 PM EDT start on FanDuel SportsNet Detroit/Fox 2/Prime Canada/TVA Sports/97.1 FM).

Petr Mrazek and Craig Smith joined the squad, Simon Edvinsson practiced after missing the last half of Friday’s loss to Washington, and Dylan Larkin took a maintenance day.

After practice, the Red Wings’ players and coach spoke with the attending media:

Tweets from Sunday’s practice + catch-up post: Mrazek, Smith join the fray; Larkin doesn’t practice

As the Detroit Red Wings prepare to battle the Ottawa Senators tomorrow night (7 PM EDT start on FanDuel SportsNet Detroit/Fox 2/Prime Canada/TVA Sports/97.1 FM), the Wings are on a five-game losing streak, having most recently dropped a 5-2 decision to the Washington Capitals on Friday night.

The Wings took Saturday off to rest after playing 3 games in 4 nights, so let’s catch you up on the Wings’ situation, if you haven’t been following of late:

Thanks to Detroit’s 5-game losing streak, the Wings are finally sinking down the Eastern Conference standings, and as they sit 3 points behind the Senators right now, Monday night’s game is of paramount importance–as are each and every one of the last 19 games of the regular season.

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The Wings are beginning to sink in the Eastern Conference standings

Ahead of today’s Red Wings practice…

The Red Wings’ 5-game losing streak has officially caught up with them.

With the New York Rangers and Columbus Blue Jackets scheduled to battle this evening, Detroit sits at 30-27-and-6, with 66 points, 2 points behind New York and Columbus, and 3 points behind Ottawa, who the Red Wings battle on Monday night.

Worse, the Montreal Canadiens and Boston Bruins have caught up with the Wings in the Wild Card standings, and the New York Islanders are only a point behind the trio of teams with 66 points.

Ottawa and Columbus have games in hand on Detroit, too, which is not ideal.

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